Next Step

It goes by slowly and I ask when will I be free…

Free of the drama, nightmares and desolation...

Peaceful in mind, heart and soul...

Eyes that don't search and no mumbles to unknown…

Tantrums of a child more than a longing…

Like an addiction that smokes lungs in despair…

Joy searched in places lasting bat of an eye…

This is not the end but a lonesome beginning…

A razor left us bleeding,

Blood tricking down drop by drop on floor

Then there was rain that wiped away everything,

the writings on the wall and the burning of a stall..

Slowly as everyhting got drenched all that remained was a thought of a sunny day.

I kept walking and along the stench crawled

Was there anything left?

Ugliness and beauty go side by side and such is life

Think of meaningless of everything

What is it that you crave for as the last breath passes away?

Not a walk of shame

It was not a walk of shame,

It was the last hug.

The last holding of hands and a final good bye.

Giving up on a life of numbered days.

"Moving on" are just not two words

Its an eternity of "what ifs and what nots"

Of an uncertainty of regret or letting go.

Putting the memories safe in a place,

Just in subconscious but not to efface.

It was not a bitter end to wonderful times

But togetherness to last a lifetime.

It was not a walk of shame.

Men are the new Women

Men are the new age Women,

The crib, they cry, at times even shed a tear

Smirk on who will be in the party and where

Gossip, exaggerate and some need brassiere

Scared of rides, ah so much fear.

There are also those who dont drive forget skydive

On skim milk and low fat meals they survive

Take time to dress and late would arrive

They whine, make faces and among them connive

Say "I have a headache" and wives sleep deprive

When Memories are a blur and voices start fading

The dreams are blank and Hatred is all gone

Birthdays are forgotten and life takes over

Little remembrances are washed out forever

I tell to myself...It is then when I will move on

But do recollections or the past ever get erased

Wouldn't it be fortuitous to desire such existence

After you have loved someone once and for all...

An empty cup of coffee
A bag packed waiting in the trunk of my car
The bill is paid, its time to go.
Wishing there was some way to rewind time.
Singing an old college song in the car
All fake smiles coz we dont wanna cry.

Long drive to the airport

When we all think if there was something forgotten to be said.

A warm hug when i dont want to let you go

Wondering how did all this time fly.

It was just yesterday when we met

And its already time to say goodbye.

Sometimes no matter how little or lot you have

It's never enough to let go.

I should have never let you let me go

It was a fight lost from beginning,
the day we said our fates didn't mean us together
and still kept falling.
When we went our own ways
living parallel lives, wishing for another universe.
In all this drama of losing one another,
Never wondering if this was ment to be ours.
Till someone said: "I should have never let you let me go"